I'm sorry for being so emotional

hey people. when i read back my last 2 posts, i feel like it's not really ME who wrote those things. seems weird for me to be so desperate about one things.
I think I might be thinking too much, getting mature too early,
and being so moody and emotional lately.
I don't know what the real reason is actually,
Seems like I have to enjoy my life more,
but still giving my best on my responsibilities,
Sorry for those who gt distracted while reading my last 2 posts which is really DESPERATE.
Thanks for my friend actually Effendi who told me so that's why i read it back once again and now i've just realized that what i've wrote and done last night is not reall a good thing. We should've be grateful and thankful for everythng had happened in our life, right ? Cause God will lead us to a better way even it doesn't look that way right now. =D GOD never leaves us , and what we are doing right now is what we'll get later on. when you do good things a good feedback will come to you unconditionally

life is hard

I think i had wrote things about this before,
Actually I'm happy with my life, but there must be time
when you're so down, you feel like you're isolated,
not supported, and not trusted by people around you.
That's what i feel right now.

I just don't have any idea how people got stuck into the same routine and things,
Well I'll tell you guys how hard i struggle on this educatinal thing,
First, I was really into medical studies, where I surely want to be a doctor,
My uncle, who's now work as a doctor, gave me a chance to go to China to take a look at the university he recommended, well that was last year,
As time goes by, I've made up my mind that I don't want to be a doctor anymore,
to be a doctor suppose to be my dream since I was a little child,
Yeah, and just as time goes by, as I learn more and as I'm getting more mature,
I decide myself to go into business,
some of the reasons are:

1. When you're becoming a doctor you need more money, more time to study
2. There are times I hate biology
3. I know it's hard for my parents to pay the fees
4. Almost everything (including doctor) doing business, right ?
5. My teacher said so
6. My heart wants to

I'm just really sure that I'm into business,
I, by myself seek for scholarship, good universities, and else
My mother DOESN'T EVEN CARE A BIT! really it sucks actually,
when you're trying so hard, but even the one you love don't trust any of your plan.
Yesterday, I saw a good signal from my mom, as she wants to go with me to an education agent in Pluit Junction, as what i had recommend.
FINE.
I was really excited, I got home earlier, prepare myself, go with smile on my face,
but in fact I'm not really happy though,
I got a lot of distraction, people push me to do "this" or "that",
I know they want the best for me,
I know they want be to me a better person,
I know they want me to be successful,
They're giving advice, that's qite logical actually for me to finish my HIGH SCHOOL in Indonesia first.
But, how can they don't trust me that i can make my best??
Why don't they see it from the good side?
Why do they always seek for a hole to let me down?
Life is hard, and it can't always be fair,
I just can be grateful there are people who are still care about me,
but please don't let me down, sometime you need to put a little trust, can't you guys ? *I said this words to those people especially my mom who can't never ever trust me.
I just can pray that everything is going to be fine
and God will lead me to become a better someone,
on PERFECT place, time, and way.
GOD BLESSES be with you :D :D :D

-Our Life depends on Him, and it always stay that way,

EXAMS ! EXAMS ! EXAMS ALERT

Our Exams schedule

Friday, 21st May
1. Mathematics
2. Physical Education

Monday, 24th May
1. Physics
2. English Language

Tuesday, 25th May
1. Chemistry
2. Computer

Wednesday, 26th May
1. Indonesia Language
2. History

Thursday, 27th May
1. Mandarin
2. Citizens

Monday, 31st May
1. Biology


THANKS TO OUR BELOVED TEACHER WHO HAD MADE THIS PERFECT COMBINATION!
FOR PAIRING THE SUBJECTS PERFECTLY!
Study Hard! It's time to study hard!
:D :D :D

I have 1 month left

1 month is the approximate time i have left to complete my senior high school,
I really want to complete this thing well,
My final exam is going to start on 21th May and I'm so nervous about it.
I believe that everything is possible,
cause there's nothing IMPOSSIBLE with GOD,
God will always give us way out from any problems,
God never leaves us ,
God wants us to try our hardest and be the best we can,
When we've tried our best, He will never let us down.
So friends, let's use this limited time to study hard and give our best,
to God, our parents, and especially YOURSELF!
Cause this is your life! What you do is what you're going to get later on.
But don't forget that we can't never walk alone,
We should hold our hands tight to our God, :D :D :D
Good luck guys for the final exams.

High School gonna end soon

In reply to my bestfriends' blog post lately, Teresa Sania, from her blog http://www.tesania.blogspot.com/ ,

Yes it's true that in not more than 2 months perhaps, we're going to end up our High School life,

Me, Teresa, and Gabby are going to go to different universities,

I'm going to China, SCUT exactly, it's located in Guang Zhou,

Teresa is going to Monash between the Singapore or Indonesia college,

Gabby is going to UNIPREP,

only Catherine who'll stay in SMAK 3 ,

It's been quite a short time for us to get to know each other,

as what Teresa mentioned on her blog that it only take 2 years to make us close to each other,

I just want you guys to know , You are all the BEST ever,

the one who coloured up my life,

the one who raise me up

the one who bring laughter,

the one who always stay and never go,

the one who care,

the one who will always stay in my heart. :D

Cause you're my best friend, and it will alway stay that way,

no matter what happen, even we're seperated by time, place , or whatever it is,

Even we won't get time to chat like we usually do,

even we won't take picture as much as we do now,

even we can't hang out this often,

even we can't share every little things like we're doing now,

even we won't meet for a couple of years,

we'll always be friend,

forever and ever,

and i'll promise myself that it will stay that way, i wish you guys feel the same too :D

Don't be sad, this is our adventure,

once we've done what we should've been done as our responsibilities,

we'll got tons of stories to tell,

tons of joke to laugh on, tons of picture to share,

tons of time to spend, :D

really i love you guys

FRIEND FOREVER .