Surfing for old stuffs

Hey, for so many times, I like to open photos folder and usually find out funny pictures, this time I found out my funny expressions when I went to Sukabumi with my whole family (happy moment =D) and tried rafting. It was such an unforgettable moment and it's very exciting. Here's some of the pictures taken, since that was my first time, I'm scared and i give some stupid and a little bit too much expression. LOL :p

too many things goin on

Hey people lately i've been faced with so many problems , I'm so sick of it already. Want to free myself for a while from every dilematic problems. :D
Anyway, i've just take a sneak peek at my photo albms , and i found this one out,
i found this one really funny. I took it on my last winter camp to China, I took it in one university there, I forget what the name of the university actually, perhaps it is named 'HanBan university' I'm not so sure about it. But they made a small technology exhibition for the winter camp contestant from all around the world.
One of the booth is this Chinese costume photo booth! :D I love it. Sometime I found it hilarious laughin at your own photos.

back to basic

hey guys , i've just changed my phone again,
but this time not to the more high technology,
but back to basic, nokia black and white, i don't even know what the series are,
Hmm, I'm not blaming anyone for havingfun with technology,
but it doesn't fit me right,
just the way i feel, I'm not mature enough to devide my time between studying and techology, that's why i'm getting rid of my blackberry phone to basic nokia,
I was before not usig the technology the way it used to be,
Handphone which is suppose to be gadget that help us to communicate with other people more easier change into things called "prestige" or what so ever people called it. They are like havig gadget war, racing to have the newest series or high technology phone, but not using it on the right way,
in my side of view, i don't really need blackberry yet cause I have internet connection in my house 24 hours non-stop, thn what is the advantage o using blackberry? Maybe there are some. When we're outside our house. But I think, we won't use it for really-really working, we're just using it to tweet on twitter, or update our status on facebook, right ?

That's what happened to me these past few weeks,
I keep playing my blackberry,
keep tweeting on twitter for things that's not important,
keep chatting with everyone
which really waste my limited time to catch up my score on the 11th grade.
Life is just so simple, when you want to get rid of something for good reasons, there'll be other things better come to us.
That's why i get rid of my BLACBERRY, to get a better score,
Really I have no offense, this is all based on my own experience,
for all blackberry users i'm just saying that you must thank God for creating people, genious one, who can create such an amazing unbelievable technology,
use it well people, use it fo good things, use it the way t used to be,
=D
God Blesses us all people! =D

I'm sorry for being so emotional

hey people. when i read back my last 2 posts, i feel like it's not really ME who wrote those things. seems weird for me to be so desperate about one things.
I think I might be thinking too much, getting mature too early,
and being so moody and emotional lately.
I don't know what the real reason is actually,
Seems like I have to enjoy my life more,
but still giving my best on my responsibilities,
Sorry for those who gt distracted while reading my last 2 posts which is really DESPERATE.
Thanks for my friend actually Effendi who told me so that's why i read it back once again and now i've just realized that what i've wrote and done last night is not reall a good thing. We should've be grateful and thankful for everythng had happened in our life, right ? Cause God will lead us to a better way even it doesn't look that way right now. =D GOD never leaves us , and what we are doing right now is what we'll get later on. when you do good things a good feedback will come to you unconditionally

life is hard

I think i had wrote things about this before,
Actually I'm happy with my life, but there must be time
when you're so down, you feel like you're isolated,
not supported, and not trusted by people around you.
That's what i feel right now.

I just don't have any idea how people got stuck into the same routine and things,
Well I'll tell you guys how hard i struggle on this educatinal thing,
First, I was really into medical studies, where I surely want to be a doctor,
My uncle, who's now work as a doctor, gave me a chance to go to China to take a look at the university he recommended, well that was last year,
As time goes by, I've made up my mind that I don't want to be a doctor anymore,
to be a doctor suppose to be my dream since I was a little child,
Yeah, and just as time goes by, as I learn more and as I'm getting more mature,
I decide myself to go into business,
some of the reasons are:

1. When you're becoming a doctor you need more money, more time to study
2. There are times I hate biology
3. I know it's hard for my parents to pay the fees
4. Almost everything (including doctor) doing business, right ?
5. My teacher said so
6. My heart wants to

I'm just really sure that I'm into business,
I, by myself seek for scholarship, good universities, and else
My mother DOESN'T EVEN CARE A BIT! really it sucks actually,
when you're trying so hard, but even the one you love don't trust any of your plan.
Yesterday, I saw a good signal from my mom, as she wants to go with me to an education agent in Pluit Junction, as what i had recommend.
FINE.
I was really excited, I got home earlier, prepare myself, go with smile on my face,
but in fact I'm not really happy though,
I got a lot of distraction, people push me to do "this" or "that",
I know they want the best for me,
I know they want be to me a better person,
I know they want me to be successful,
They're giving advice, that's qite logical actually for me to finish my HIGH SCHOOL in Indonesia first.
But, how can they don't trust me that i can make my best??
Why don't they see it from the good side?
Why do they always seek for a hole to let me down?
Life is hard, and it can't always be fair,
I just can be grateful there are people who are still care about me,
but please don't let me down, sometime you need to put a little trust, can't you guys ? *I said this words to those people especially my mom who can't never ever trust me.
I just can pray that everything is going to be fine
and God will lead me to become a better someone,
on PERFECT place, time, and way.
GOD BLESSES be with you :D :D :D

-Our Life depends on Him, and it always stay that way,